Everything happened after March 2020 and until today still is like a surrealistic paint from Salvador Dali or a Buñuel film.
I spent the last 2 years battling with a broken heart and cancer, oh yeah, I can’t also not forget to spend the quarantine alone as a risk person due to my diabetics.
One day I found an article about the relation between cancer and a broken heart. The conclusion of the article was: it is not clear if broken heart syndrome causes cancer or vice versa…both are shitty situations.
From my experience on this topic, things really happen for a reason. My heart was yearning for love, compassion, friendship and time. But He could not give me anything of those things.
He left me without a good bye and telling me he never felt anything for me. At the beginning I was very sad and felt like I didn’t worth a thing, even a good bye after almost 4 years. Nowadays I feel it was the way things should have happened. After 4 months of the break up I was diagnosed with Cervical Cancer stage 3.
Everything was so fast, his absence stop to be part of my day, He was not so active in my head anymore. My thoughts 24/7 were : I want to be healthy, I don’t want to die.
One day I found my worth again. It was me! I worth because I am I !! He was not my worth.
Today I think he made me a favor when he left me. Battle a cancer lacking of love, attention, compassion and friendship is not the best medicine.
So I don’t know if one thing causes the other, for me a broken heart and a cancer caused me to find myself again and I am glad for it.